Memahs Brains

Another great Give a way!

2010-04-29T17:40:00.000-07:00

I am so not sure who even really reads this! However, for those who come along...I am telling you! You are missing out on some great give a ways from CAIAFACRAZINESS!!!

If you are not following her @ www.caiafacraziness.com you really need to! I am trying to win a book called "Chicken Soup for the Soul, Thanks Mom" as I am very interested in reading it!

I hope you all take a minute to stop by her blog!!

May Meagan win!

2010-04-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

So, over at Caiafacraziness.com I read a blog about this great give away! She is giving away a Misikko Flat Iron! Meagan saw it and thought that she would want it! So, I am here blogging away to tell anyone who comes across this page to go!! Go to www.caiafacraziness.com and read that blog! Not only is she a great friend...but you will LOVE the give aways she does :)

Oh OH! Help for Trevor!

2010-02-11T11:25:00.000-08:00

http://sarahsreviewsandgiveaways.blogspot.com/2010/02/kidz-bop-17-review-and-giveaway.html?showComment=1265916311287_AIe9_BFijsR5dEqhhbkB0vbOL7X0DhRivryseVfb-vLHDhivh4mlqo7Fs1vw82H1KNDsAu5ILFcaqgGGeuRYAmVQ4Q0iJ_FuGBDU0NDwJT8Z2xy5wBIyfLLT52iZdP6O6Ui5AVVrV5gUjEHQ7sk5VW2H19BusC4qtJc4wfHtc68aBTV5CzvOSw_oW116BSXeOEdfDt3CIidq_RVOC6AarAowJgyna-v4UfVu6Law5b8xtFe69izSZwHQ64NpPxU3FToqZlucL_pZ#c886121447835188789

This blog never dis-appoints! And I want to win this something awful for Trevor!!

Sarah's give a ways!! Yippee!!

2010-02-11T11:22:00.001-08:00

http://sarahsreviewsandgiveaways.blogspot.com/2010/02/country-bobs.html?showComment=1265916099720_AIe9_BHxw8SKE5iCrxIALmTgm1Ae4MBYxC8t1CM9EohAgD0Dj2z-vnqA50nEkGBnQocan9dasSCc4yVqPoChZCEoQ75eBC6wBL2vm4d8X7UHBTU3YH9r6yerKQi3ULaRGtn4mN7mAZFjbf0tBvp_U9yYLA31tJPZ8qvEvK-O9YMwA5gVuaf2oVGimOdzvS5QyX38QZiRq8YAvEpTvjlKLIszA1Tz5JIG5i0tCFFvW0xaSaMPdjMNWiY#c2267365610087581008

Oh my goodness! This stuff sounds delicious!! Go read the blog and you can be entered too :)

Who wants to win a prize or 10???

2009-12-02T07:56:00.000-08:00

So, I have found this awesome give-a-way blogging site you need to check out! Add to your blog readings www.autismandadoptionblessings.blogspot.com . Sarah has all sorts of great give-a-ways and interesting readings you may like!

Hope you guys win! Let me know what you get! I got an awesome beanie for Baileigh fr Christmas and I won 4 e-books for Trevor!

:) Happy Holidays!!

Hi again!

2009-10-29T14:37:00.000-07:00

So, I have had my back procedure. And it went well, or so I thought! I felt real woozy the first day after anesthia. Then felt pretty good Tuesday. So anyone who knows me, knows I just HAD to do it! I had to go shopping! And off I went Wednesday morning. It was raining, but I did not care! Off to Walmart, Aldi's, then Stop & shop I went. And was doing ducky...heehee! Yeah, in the rain I felt ducky! And I shopped till my lil hearts content!

I bought an outfit for the new grandson, a toy for Baileigh, and of course Trevor got spoiled past what I do all the time anyways! I bought him 10 new shirts, some pants...and then off to the toy department. You see, he has been coming home with Bakugon (or however you spell it) Balls from school. So I bought him his own. 4 of them! So, he proceeded to tell me "I love you Memah!" :) I think he likes them!

Well, after shopping and carrying it all into the house then putting it away, my back hurts again. So yes, I am stupid....but Trevor loves me !!

ding a ling...my ding a ling

2009-10-21T10:01:00.000-07:00

Is my mother in law! Only MY MIL would call me to tell me I am a bad mother! Did you know I am the reason Nicole is the way she is?? Yes, you see..let me make you understand! LOL!

Nicole is Bi-polar because I yelled at her when she was 3 years old for pushing the little girl down the road! And Baileigh may be that way since I yelled at her at Nicole's shower for pushing Bails friend Emma!

Oh, and Nicole is Bi-polar because when she was 4 and bit me, I slapped her hand...

So, a warning to all mommy's....do not disipline your children! They may develope Bi-polar disorder :)

A give away :)

2009-10-21T08:03:00.001-07:00

A fellow blogger, (shh, my bestie) is giving away something from UPRINTING!

From her Blog : Thanks to Uprinting.com I get to giveaway 100 Postcards to one lucky winner. You will receive 100 postcards sized 4x6 on 14pt Cardstock Gloss and printing full color on both sides. Shipping Free UPS ground shipping in the US (Canadian residents pay shipping and taxes. Offer not available to residents outside of the US and Canada)!!!!!

So, go to her blog...or leave her a comment here! Make sure to enter...it is a FANTASTIC company!!

Huh?

2009-10-15T13:45:00.000-07:00

So, it is now up to me to decide what to do. Do I completely delete my myspace & my facebook? I can not even log on there now without getting nasty notes telling me not to fight with Nicole, that I am the immature asshole. I am being told I need to handle things more maturely. I am being told that because she is "mentally ill" as it was worded in an e-mail...that I am beating a dead horse and to "pretend" that I do not see her shit. I "clog" up peoples "newsfeeds" and "status pages" with bullshit about my lying in bed and Nicole's drama...hmmm, I guess I am just a lovely piece of shit that needs to leave the damn internet world...and do what they say I do all day. GO lay in my effin bed! And let them all deal with Nicole. She can tell them all the bullshit she wants and I will keep taking it bent over dry.

One day, I am going to pack up this family...and move them all. Away from her. Away from the Drama....away from all this.

Someday...

2009-10-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Someday it is going to happen. We are going to HAVE to make it stop. Not for us, but for Trevor. Because he needs to be protected. Protected from the person who was supposed to be the one giving him love, affection, and protection. Unfortunately, that is not working. That person has turned out to be someone who I do not know. Even though I gave birth to her. I have learned things about her in the last few days that have pushed me to points I did not think I would ever go back to...2007...but we are back there. We are right back to where I meed to be in protect mode. I need to guard him from the lying, caniving, awful person she has turned into.

How dare she tell me to grow up and not cause "drama"? How dare she? After all, it is not me who started the drama. It is me trying to make it end. The reason there is "drama" in her precious make believe world is because I came crashing through her phoney doors with a gush of reality she does not want to deal with.

So, I guess it is time to put on the big girl panties...and have Dean put on his big boy boxers...and we need to put on our tall boots. This crap is going to get deep...and she is not going to like it when we can shower all the nastiness off us that she placed on us.

Ok, so really??

2009-10-08T09:01:00.000-07:00

Now really. How much am I really supposed to deal with before telling someone to screw off? Honestly?

I was kept up all night with a sick baby (Baileigh). Which is fine. BUT, to have to get the number to the pediatrician, dial the phone & put it in her hand is a whole different thing. Baileighs fever would not break...told them to put her in a lukewarm bath, do the alternating tylenol & motrin every 4 hrs, and even wiped her down with alcohol. They wanted to run her to the ER last night. Well, lets see what happens. Well, this morning we were still battling the fever, call the pediatrician I say. Nope, Jay wants to run her to the ER and tells a 2 yr old that if she did not take all her medicine (the motrin) the Dr's would give her needles! WTF dude! You do not tell a little kid that! So, once they got the appt, off they go. But before leaving...I asked Nicole if she wanted to stay here with the little one for the day while asswipe went to work. Nicole said yes, I asked her what she would want for dinner...she says burgers. Oh, and she wants me to get pedialyte & pedialyte pops for Bails. Ok I say (Dumnass I am, right?)

Off they go, I go to the store and get her ... burgers & all the fixins, fries, and orange soda she likes. Black Cohosh, licorice, and castor oil (she wants to help induce labor) ok...I bought it all. And I got Bails her stuff...and got Nicole a bag of pull-ups, a thing of baby wipes, and tylenol to bring to her house.

I know, I am the asshole...! I came home to everything they left missing from the house, they left ALL the lights on, no note, no call...NOTHING. So...once again. I have been screwed over. And she can not answer the phone for me...and asswipe won't (he knows I am gonna bend him over & give it dry for screwing me again). I am so mad right now...

I am going to pack all the stuff she requested (including the effin burgers) and give it to her at her shower...that's it! I am done!

New meds

2009-09-25T19:56:00.000-07:00

So, I am now officially on new meds for the fibromyalgia. We will see where that gets me. Hopefully feeling better. That is the main objective.

I did not have to drive all over the state today, which was fabulous. Tammy offered to take Trevor. So we (Dean, myself, & MEg) had pizza and just relaxed. It was nice to be able to do that. We do not spend alot of time just the three of us...doing nothing. It was real nice to kick back & chill out.

Trevor seemed to have a great week. So we are happy with that. He doesmiss his Blake & Nate. But, next summer we will be able to take him down to SC to see them! He is excited for that.

I am wiped out, but just felt like babbling...and did not want to pick up the phone...so I babbled here...now off to sleep. I will fill blog world in tomorrow on how things really are!

Oh man

2009-09-22T17:01:00.001-07:00

So, where to start! I guess I will just spill, and maybe organize it all later. I am just really in a bad mood.

Why can't I just get a little itty bit of peace? I say do not poke yourself with a pencil in the finger or you are going to get hurt. I say this nicely about 7 times, then loose my niceness, scream, and get called an impatient bitch. Well, atleast nobody is poking themselves with pencils anymore. I say put on your pajamas, and he comes out with his school clothes on. I say to him he can not sleep in his school clothes, and I am told that I am being a bitch. I make everyone dinner, they eat ( I did not as I have too many things on my mind) and get told it took too long. Hmmft, maybe today is a day I should have stayed in bed, not gotten out, and made them all deal with life alone. And stayed in my nice bed with my bitchy self. I would have been better off.

Nobody knows I am going in to see the Dr and find out if I am showing signs of MS. Why did I not tell them? Because, I do not need them all up in my face trying to treat me like a baby ORRR, better yet, have mister know it all telling me that I am just letting life pass me away. Son of a you know what...when?? When is it I will catch a sympathetic hug? When will he just know that I am not the cute lil 18 yr old I was then? When is he going to open his eyes and figure out Nicole is not getting better?

Lets go there for a minute...WTF? Why can I not get even a simple answer out of her? Or better yet, what the hell does she need to check with Jay for on EVERYTHING? Geesh, she can not eat, piss, shit, or sneeze without him up her ass. I swear, he is just the absolute biggest hypochodriact Ihave EVER seen. And her with her BPD or which ever it may be this week...just makes her feed off him. Now she whines like she is 2. Baileigh does not whine like her mother! Trevor doesn't whine like his mother...but her & that ass of a husband. He is just looking to figure out how to not work....Come on! Please...I am tired of paying their bills and I am sure so is Marc, and Jay's mother.

Lets get off that subject. I am having a real shitty day, and instead of help, I am told I am a bitch. Well ladee effin dah. I do not give a crap if anyone is mad I am not in a good mood. When they have to have more MRI's. cat scans, and a lumbar puntcure....then they can feel the way I do & I will tell them they are acting like a bastard. Now I have people trying to read what I am writing...so I will be back....until then...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

So...life at it's best!

2009-09-15T16:42:00.000-07:00

Where to start this blog for the night....

Sarah is gone...she is in SC with her hubby & children. I am happy for her...and yet miss her more than words will allow me to express..

Well, I guess I am writing tonight out of frustration. This damn fibromyalgia is kicking my ass. And frankly...I am tired of it. I have new symptoms that worry me. I am not sure what to do with them, other than call the Dr & see where it all lands me. When do I stop reading the books and researching? It is oh so frustrating. The fibro kicks my butt some days. And this is a time where I am succombing to the pain. I hate this. I hate feeling like this. I really hate the way I feel. One day I feel completely normal, and the next I am in so much pain I spend the whole thing in bed!

Speaking of my bed! I love that bed! It is a friend to me. I can cry there, I can feel free there, I can say what I want to say without judgement. And it all stays right there. I can vent about the family without being told I am being picky, needy, or demanding. And when I do vent...I feel better.

Oh, and then there is Nicole. What to do... Seriously. That girl. I love her. I just do not know what to do to help her. I am supposed to not allow her to be co-dependant. But I am her mom, and do not know where the line is sometimes. It is really difficult being the mom of a daughter who needs me...but hates me all in the same exact moment. I am frustrated with the lies. I do not know what to do somedays. I have the discharge papers. It is plain to me...she is bi-polar, has episodes of psychosis (both auditory & visual), and she has personality disorders. Which I do not know as they did not write them. So I have to try to figure it out. One day she tells me she has all this ... and then proceeds to tell me I do not know what I am talking about. That she is only bi-polar and I am imagining the rest. Well, I have the papers & her therapy books here to tell me otherwise. So what do I do with her? Allow her to control me? I do not think so. I try to keep my mouth shut for Trevor's sake. But sometimes, it is really hard! I have reseached all the diseases over and over. I TRY to understand for her, but when is it again time to stop researching and just accept it? When do I stop what I call helping?

That little boy is such a joy. And she is missing out. All becasue she will not do what it takes for the kids. She does what is right for HER. And that really sucks. Trevor is growing up with us...not his mother because she is what I consider to be really greedy. She would rather be with her man, being manic, making up AWFUL stories about people than to take her meds and raise her kids. Dean still is living with her telling the police she was molested by her father trying to get Trevor taken from here. Absolutely WRONG! She is in conseling...and PROMISED her father that she was sorry and would go to the police & say she was wrong. But nooooo. She keeps living the lie. What the hell is wrong with this picture?? Can ANYONE explain this to me where it makes sense? Because we all think she is not telling the police the truth in fear of her getting reprimanded or in trouble with the police. So poor Dean has to live wondering everyday if the police are going to show up. This is complete bullshit. I am still ripshit...and have to look at her every week in our home...and "not push her buttons or upset HER"....grrrrr. And there is a little 5 yr old boy in the middle of all this. Who loves his mommy...

Well, I am rambling, but really feel the need to put this all outside my mind. So, I write. They all tell me that this is what I should do to get rid of it. We will see! I am not so sure it is going to work, but I am willing to give it a shot!

Well...going to facebook some, maybe make a phone call...and take more pain meds! What else do I have to do! Little guy is laying down watching his movie, Dean is watching the game, and Meg...she is in her room! So...I will try to make myself pain free...then call the Dr again in the morning!

G-nite people who might read this thing....I call life

Oh how things are!

2009-08-25T16:16:00.000-07:00

Well, so...

I have been speanding alot of time with Sarah before she moves. It has been real nice. I am very glad to have a friend who does not expect, pull from my family, or whines. Even with all she is going through being away from Paul, she is really holding it together better than she thinks.

We now have Bobbi living with us. She is a Blue & Gold macaw. Who is screaming in my ear as I type this! She has bonded very well with me and we enjoy having her here.

Trevor begins Kindergarden tomorrow. I can not believe how big the little man is getting. He is 5 yrs old already! And ready for school...oh how time flies. He got his glasses today & he informed me that he can see! :) So this is all good!

I have Nicole (Trevor's mom) & Jay here for the night. THey would like to see Trevor off for his first day...so what am I to say?? I can not say no...as Trevor would be upset...so I deal with the drama. Oh well! They are swimming now...hopefully they will remember tomorrow morning is HIS morning and not turn it into something about them! We will see what happens...

Hope everyone has a fabulous week...I am going to blog again tomorrow with all they sayings of the Kindergarden drama for you to enjoy with me...

I sign off os Bobbi is YELLING...TREVORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR LOL!

Just an introduction

2009-08-14T19:12:00.000-07:00

This is a place where I (aka Memah, mom, wife, woman, friend, crazy, pain in the you know what) can just be me. And lay it out. Let me tell you, this is going to be interesting! You see, I have aweird sense of humor.

What I think you should do is sit back, get yourself a coffe, tea, or soda...and get ready to either cry or laugh! Life is interesting through my eyes...

Sit down a spell....get comfy, and buckle up! Sometimes it gets crazy...but this is my life.

I am a mom of 2. A 23 year old bipolar daughter with personality disorders and a 17 year old daughter with Aspergers Syndrome. I am now raising my 5 yr old ADHD grandson that belongs to the oldest. She has a daughter (who lives with her daddy...not the same daddy) (told you this is nuts) and she is now married to another idiot...and on baby 3. The 17 yr old is too smart for her own good and looking into a wonderful college and gonna make her mommy rich! So she says! Maybe the next "Buddy" from The Cake Boss.

I am married to Dean. He is a good guy who needs to get his butt kicked occassionally. But works hard to try to provide us a comfy life. And I am Tracy...the jack of all trades who forgets who I am some days. I am trying to remember who I am...and finding myself. So you can join the voyage with me!

Ok...lets go... :) Nice to meet ya!!!!